Have Courage and Be Kind

Originally I entitled this blog post, “Dark Night of the Soul”. As time went by, and I slowly began to reclaim my power, I shifted my focus more on one of the phrases that helped me make it through. “Have Courage and Be Kind” might be recognized by other fairy tale aficionados. Fairy tales have been key in my life since, at very young age, I laid eager little hands on my first enchanted book. A myriad of reasons drew me into the world of fantasy. One might observe that fairy tales have as much dark in them as light. Hmmm…..that is
kind of like life. There is Light and Dark all around. We choose which to focus on and also which we wish to create more of – either consciously or unconsciously. Magic also drew me into tales lending to elements most everyday people don’t believe in, much less access. For me, there was more truth and joy in the enchanting stories I got lost in than what people presented as truth. Interestingly, many of the things that folks attributed to vivid imaginations are being “proven” today by “modern” science and countless people sharing their own experiences. Still, for those of us with “unusual” awareness, science can be painfully slow.

So……how many times is it necessary for this human to experience a “Dark Night of the Soul” until a full awakening? Perhaps the answer is in the question. As many times as it takes until a full awakening. If you are interested in looking in to this experience further, Gregg Prescott presents an interesting article "What to Remember When Facing the Dark Night of the Soul"

Encountering the snow and cold as you read in my previous post LET IT GO wasn’t the only experience I totally wasn’t anticipating…..

While I thought I was also past this, some small part of me must have still been exuding somewhat of a victim vibe. As many of you know, the energies we put out are matched with those that share resonance. So, inevitably, I managed unwittingly to attract someone who would accommodate my subconscious victim call. This was no Beauty and the Beast story as I had no clue of what I was about 

to encounter. Feeling a false sense of safety, I confided my private information and some very deep things including personal woundings from my past, to that individual, allowing myself to be extremely vulnerable. Instead of protecting that trust, the truth of what I shared was completely twisted and used repeatedly as ammunition against me. Over the months, I had semi-consciously permitted myself to be weakened both physically and emotionally. Thoughts of Prince Hans (Frozen) and King Stefan (Maleficent) swirl through my mind repeatedly....

Somehow, I have attracted this Jekyll and Hyde situation a number of times in my life. So, whatever it is in me that was calling that, I am so ready to release it. Like the feelings that no longer served me in my previous blog post, it’s time to Let It Go!

Hear Elsa’s voice in Frozen singing determined…. “Funny how some distance makes everything seem small. And the things that bothered me can’t get to me at all. Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know…….” What was I concealing? I was beginning to conceal my magnificence. In the process, I had to a certain extent not feel to have any sense that any of this was alright at all. Constantly second guessing myself, I was getting to the point I no longer even trusted my own intuition. Finally, I was able to make some distance from this dark situation physically.
It took weeks of cocooning in safe loving refuges to put the necessary distance emotionally and spiritually though. I am starting to feel more like my authentic magnificent self every day and can, once again, courageously declare….. “You have no power over me!” Yet one more situation transcended by the Light!






Are you living in your magnificent authenticity? Are the people surrounding you supportive and reflective of your own bright light? Are you being who you truly are or someone you feel you need to be for others? As someone able to see many angles of this human existence, perhaps I can guide you to a higher, more genuine way of living. If this stirs something deep inside you, with hopes of more fulfilling possibilities, perhaps Wellness Coaching via Phone is for you. If so, I look forward to your email and would be honored to serve you.

I have now reached the place again of clarity and remembrance of contracts made before arriving on planet earth. In this knowing, I am extremely grateful for all who have played their unique parts so perfectly thus far in my life.

Walking through both the Dark and Light has enabled me to reach a more profound level of BEING than ever. The world continues to brightly transform through the eyes and heart of deep compassion and loving kindness. A huge thank you especially to all you Earth Angels who have lovingly supported me through this experience. Waves of appreciation, also, to all my Mermaid, Dolphin and Fairy Friends.

LET IT GO……..

This is a phrase that has now flowed through me more times than I can count. It represented many

things over the years from letting go of material things, relationships that no longer served, situations I couldn’t change and more. How extremely ironic it was I went to see the movie Frozen in the theatre when it came out. How could sun and warmth loving me so relate to a movie with that title?? Anyone who knows me also knows of my aversion to the snow and cold. Nonetheless, a few who are a bit closer to me understand my connection and the many personal relevancies of that “fairytale”. In fact, my darling niece and great-niece felt inspired to send me an Elsa shirt with “Let It Go” as a cheerful reminder.

Recently I had an incredible, totally unexpected opportunity to “Let It Go” on an infinitely higher level than previously. If someone had described to me the month before my transformation, I would not have believed it and, furthermore, would not have gone. See earlier blog post  If I’d Have Known As is was, I did go full on  - physically and emotionally. To shorten the story to blog post length, I ended up agreeing to accompany a friend on a visit to his mom in the Northeastern region of the US….in the WINTER! What was I thinking?! The whole time I was traveling there, I couldn’t even believe my own actions and wondered what could have possibly possessed me. I entered into an almost altered state of reality.

When I first actually saw the “white stuff”, I was in a state of semi-denial. Arriving, there were actually only traces here and there. The next morning dawned a completely different story. Created by a blizzard from the night before, I looked out at what might have been a winter wonderland.

Instead, I recoiled inside and burst into tears. My stomach twisted in knots as my mind played images from long ago like a movie that would not stop. Reliving the painful feelings actually took me quite by surprise. While I knew I didn’t prefer the snow and cold, I thought I had thoroughly dealt with all these old experiences and was at peace with them. Obviously not. I burrowed back into the bed trying to shut it all out. Finally, I got myself together enough to be “sociable”.

When it was time to go out in the snow, another barrage of distressing emotions were triggered. By the way, going out in it meant the 3 seconds it took from being completely snow bunny bundled from head to toe in a heated house to a heated car. Then, of course, the reverse had to happen at our destination. The miles in between were almost non-existent as I closed my eyes imagining I was somewhere else. As the days went by, I’d open my eyes here and there. But all I saw was ugly and painful. The associations I made with sights and sounds were pretty much all negative. Then one day, I caught myself mentally noting how cute something was on someone’s house. Then something else was beautiful. That day was definitely a breakthrough as I slowly began noticing beauty all around. Finally I even got to the day where I saw the snow itself as glorious and magical. The height of my “healing” came the day I actually played in it.

I felt joy as if through the eyes of a child. Yet a wise child. It wasn’t as if nothing had happened before. It was knowing all that had transpired and getting back to the point of innocence, appreciation and wonder. I’d notice the occasional sunlight making the dancing frozen moisture appear as a zillion fairies at play. Crystalline prisms sparkled enchantment….in frozen fractals all around!

While I definitely wouldn’t have intentionally gone through this
transformational experience, my Wise Self evidently knew something little human me did not. I still am not crazy about being in the snow, do NOT like the cold and am still searching for my secluded dolphin retreat in the tropics. However, the deep dread about being in the cold and snow no longer has its grips on me. “You have no power over me!” This triumphant, awakened phrase from Sarah, in the movie The Labyrinth, was very poignant both with regard to the snow and old memories as well as what was imminently in store. Unbeknownst to me at the time, I absolutely would need renewed strength to make it through to the other side of the next challenge I unwittingly allowed to totally blindside me ……

Presently, I am going within to determine how and what to share in my next post via a manner that will be for the highest good and edification of all. In the meantime, do you ever feel as if life is pulling you in strange directions? …..like you might have fallen down the Rabbit Hole? Perhaps Wellness Coaching by Phone might assist you on your unique journey? If you’ve ever contemplated the idea, look HERE to decide if you are called to take the next enchanted step.

Here is a link for my Fairy Sparkles video. I could not figure out how to embed it in this blog....

Make New Friends, But Keep The Old…..

As the saying goes, people are in our lives for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime. I’m sure you have noticed this phenomenon in your life to one degree or other. In days gone by, in an environment with much less technology, people's world generally consisted of their close family, neighbors, friends from work and various organizations they belonged to. It was a challenge enough keeping up with everyone then. In my own life, there was a time when I could keep track of many family and friends’ birthdays, special events and what was going on in their lives. However, with increased technology and broader travels, I meet thousands of people – making new friends everywhere I go. As much as I would like to stay in close contact with everyone, this has become physically impossible. I just do the best I can and rely on the Universe to help me touch base or reconnect with just the right friends at just the perfect time. It is almost miraculous how this has worked out for me over and over again.

A great example of connections and uncanny reconnections happened recently. One day I was to meet my daughter Natasha for lunch. She is a Banker at Wells Fargo in Westlake Village CA on Lindero Canyon Road. Since I was arriving earlier than her lunch time, she requested I pick up sub sandwiches from a shop on Lindero Cyn Rd and Kanan Road. When I arrived at the shopping center, I wasn’t sure, from her description, which place to go. It could have been 1 of 3 possible food establishments. Since I couldn’t call her, I chose a place based on the number of the address….640. (Some of my readers will smile knowingly here.) So there I am, standing in Sub Contractor
Sandwiches waiting for my order, when an interesting mural on the

wall catches my eye. Depicted is a colossal sub sandwich with a team of builders in the process of its construction. Men on ladder and around are dwarfed by its size. What really jumped out at me was the artist’s signature in the design….Linda Hager. My gosh, I hadn’t seen that name in ages!

Linda Hagar is an extremely talented muralist. In the beginning of 2001, she transformed my upstairs home office in Thousand Oaks, California into a magical beachscape. (I wish I had photos to share with you of her enchanting creation but, as you may imagine, a gypsy cannot take everything with her.) It was so refreshing to work by “the shore” complete with sand castle, treasure chest, shells and a crab. Mommy and baby dolphin never tired of leaping in the air. My “sky” was a bluish purple with cotton candy clouds floating by. When we moved from that house, that scene and feeling was one of the most difficult things I had to leave behind. Hopefully the new owners appreciated it with their own sense of wonder. Over the years, there were a couple occasions I wanted to refer Linda’s work. For some reason, the contact info I had for her no longer worked and I couldn’t track her down.

Back at Sub Contractor…I compliment the sandwich art to the gentleman behind the counter asking how long it had been there. He responded about 15-20 years. With guarded hope, I asked if he knew how to contact the artist. As he apologetically responded, the woman behind me, another Linda, piped up with a cheerful, “I know Linda”. Wow, what are the odds? Evidently, when the Universe is conspiring in your favor, the odds are very great! I ended up giving her my card and she got back to me later with Linda’s contact info. It was wonderful to re-connect and hear Linda’s voice over the phone. She has been keeping busy with her art especially in a gratifying manner that touches untold numbers. Her work brightens peoples’ day in pediatric and oncology hospital wards. You can read more about that work in this 2011 LA Daily News Article If you’d like reach Linda Hager regarding her work, just contact me and I will assist in facilitating that.

I used to get a little frustrated not being able to keep in touch with people in the manner I desired. Now that I trust making the perfect connections at the right times, this type of Serendipity happens often in my life. Can you think of the times it’s happened in yours as well? Did you know you can actually magnetize desired synchronicities in your life on a regular basis instead of just random happenings? You can discover how with the guidance of Telephone Wellness Coaching. Read about it HERE to see/feel if it’s right for you.

If you are reading this now, you are my Friend on some level and I thank you for that gift! Many of my relationships are maintained more on a spiritual or soul level. While we may not be able to see each other or converse for years, we definitely are aware of each other’s presence. When we do communicate or see each other again, we just pick up where we left off. The bond remains strong. It is like no time has gone by. Then again, what is time? Perhaps a topic for another day :-)

PS to this blog post with regard to Linda Hager's magical art....

She has painted many uplifting murals both at Tarzana Regional Medical Center as well as Holy cross Hospital in Mission Hills. The significance of this is that I was born in Holy Cross and my kids both made their entrance into this world at Tarzana. Linda was kind enough to share a number of photos of her work. I am happy to present a few of them are below. Linda Hager can be reached at lbhager2@gmail.com if you would like to comment or inquire about her work.

Destination Unknown

Who was that person named Michelle Hazlewood who had 1 year, 5 year, 10 year and more plans all plotted out? Who was that person with all those specific worldly goals? It sure seems like another individual than I am right now and, possibly, another lifetime! Current ME has goals like peace and happiness in the NOW moment. Where I will be to live those goals tomorrow, next week or next month continue to remain elusive. It is becoming more natural for me to go with the flow – even when that flow takes me places I thought I’d never go in my wildest imagination. Good thing “never” is not in my usual vocabulary.

December’s end and January certainly brought me to completely unexpected destinations and experiences. It’s not important that I share the specific details – only that my spiritual growth has expanded in leaps and bounds beyond anything I would have thought. I ask the Universe for certain lessons, or “remembrances”, manifested in the best way for me. Sure enough, a Higher Power knows better than my human self how to deliver!

So my main share in this blog post, from my personal encounters, is this. I recommend you define your goals, say your prayers or put out your requests to God or The Universe but not be attached to all the specific “hows” and even the exact outcomes. While you could get what you think you what with your human recipe, you may be limiting the grand gifts you could be receiving. It’s fine to have or follow a certain formula – I just suggest you add, “this or something better” and allow for flexibility in your process.
If you’d like to play with this whole idea together, perhaps you’d like to consider Telephone Wellness Coaching. Together we could create…..A Whole New World!

It’s been over a decade now since I received, what I refer to as, the "download" regarding a Tropical Dolphin Spa Retreat Center. Many details were revealed to me then, with equal amounts left mysterious. The whole picture was in the realm of my capabilities but not necessarily my personal dreams/desires. Reflecting on various aspects, I decided, if it were for the highest and best good of all, things would fall into place for this manifestation. If this was indeed Divinely inspired, I would joyfully walk through necessary doors but would not break down doors.

Since that event, so long ago, my journey has taken me through a variety of interesting situations in many parts of the world. Travel with me, if you so desire, by subscribing to my blog or perusing previous posts. Sometimes I wonder if any of these adventures are bringing me closer to that tropical retreat vision. God, the Universe, often works in ways mysterious to humankind and this may be a perfect example.

Even now, I continue to walk through the doors presenting to me and one particular opportunity keeps popping up as a key puzzle piece – moving my lots in Costa Rica. That gorgeous property was from a time of different energy in my life. My former husband and I purchased it with expectations of building our dream home there. While the land is definitely magnificent and in close proximity to jungle and beach, it is not appropriate for the new energy necessary for the development of the retreat haven I am envisioning. So I believe it is necessary to sell or trade it in order to open the door to acquire land more suitable for that place “shown to me”.

With that in mind, I am again requesting your assistance in making the appropriate contacts for this to come to fruition. Please check out and share the new pages on my Universal Wellness website dedicated to Costa Rica Land for Sale or Trade: TWO Lots 1-Ocean View.94 acre 2-Tropical Forest w Creek.55 acre Combined Value $158,000 for Cash, Land, Boat or House I also have a facebook page with details, pics and many interesting tidbits about Costa Rica. If you are on fb, please LIKE my page to help increase exposure there.

Whether you’ve just met me on my path now or have been honoring me with your presence on the journey for years, I am deeply grateful! I know it is hard to keep up with all the technology these days but a line or two about how you are doing is invited and appreciated too.

Aloha and Mahalo

My 48 hour drive from Florida to California paid off. I was able to have some Halloween fun with my kids. Carved pumpkin creations with Jeff and became Cleopatra with Tasha aka Natasha Romanoff. Sure helps staying a “kid” myself!

It was only a short rest period as, less than a week later, I was having an eagle’s eye view of clouds, land and sea en route to the Big Island of Hawaii. The Hilo side was lush with greenery due to the fact it rains quite often. Kona’s coast brought a bit less rain and a beauty all its own.

One of the most magnificent opportunities I was privileged to have was a close encounter with a large pod of Hawaiian Spinner Dolphins. Guiding me to Kealakekua Bay was my intuitive dolphin sister, Kim Nelli. We have been “friends” for years but hadn’t met in person until that day. Our sisterhood goes way back lifetimes but our friendship this time started when I saw Kim’s youtube welcoming her daughter Naiya into this world….assisted in labor by dolphins! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lmg7MKnW2Zc I contacted her and had been trying to meet in person for years seeming to just miss each other many times…..in California, in Florida and Hawaii. Just a reminder all happens in Divine Timing.  Our dolphin magic unfolded in spite of the cloud coverage keeping the sun from illuminating the turquoise depths. Spinners appeared everywhere….playing, leaping and interacting with us. There were at least 10 proud mamas showing off their precious babies. I was so thrilled I felt like I would burst with the inexplicable feelings communicated via the dolphins. One even sported a leaf on his (or her) pectoral fin. I so wanted to dive down and play the "leaf game" but forgot how buoyant doubling 2 wet suits can be! It was impossible for me to leave the surface. The dolphins comforted me in my dilemma by frequently swimming close by making a myriad of clicks, whistles and other pulsating sounds. They even created enchanting rainbow bubbles that danced to the surface fairly magically. Kim captured much of it on video and shared a brief clip with me . While not the clearest visibility, you will easily identify our finned friends and…..yep, the neoprene "float" is me :-) https://www.facebook.com/kimnelli/videos/10156237958890032/

Kim has teamed up with another dolphin sister (another serendipitous connection of mine), Yu-Wen Allison Lu and a couple more goddesses I’ve not met yet. Together they have created an experience called Conscious Pregnancy Retreats. To learn more about this, please visit their website /http://consciouspregnancyretreats.com/

My parents and I had awesome experiences in Hawaii. With

hundreds of amazing photos, it was hard to decide on which few to include. While perhaps there may have been better choices, I’ve selected the ones here or this blog post won’t get out this year!

Profuse thanks - Mahalo Nui again for sharing my adventures and supporting them in so many wondrous ways. Please let me know if there is any way I can assist you on your journey through Telephone Wellness Coaching, NutritionalSupport or the Tower Garden. Be sure to stayed tuned for where I will “surface” next ;-) Wishing you and yours delightful holidays. Vibrant health, child-like happiness and dolphin love throughout your 2016 too!