Phoenix Rising

While I know I am in the absolute right place in the exact right time at all times, there are moments when things can still be a bit tough on this human plane. I returned to California from Florida toward the end of November of 2013. Although I had no idea what was next, I was pretty sure it would fall into place in the next 2 months….3 at the most. I was, of course, happy to see my parents and kids (grown up now but they’ll always be my kids). It was delightful to reconnect with friends in the area as well. As the weeks marched on, one situation would appear as a possibility and then another….only to fall apart a short time later. I was more than a little surprised to get almost no viable information about my next tropical door in spite of my numerous efforts. Instead, all I knew was my “next step” for months. In spite of the fact that I noticed (and assisted in) many wonders along my California journey, I had allowed some darkness to creep into my life in the form of doubt, sadness and discouragement. As I let these emotions insidiously grow, my remembrance of who I truly am and what I am capable of dimmed. Even though some others could still see my light, I was having difficulty seeing it myself. What I knew and what I felt became two very different places. One loud and very clear realization was there was no way I could live like this indefinitely.

A couple Earth Angels, aka my Parents, stepped up to help “revive” me. Some kind of retreat was necessary for renewal and reconnection with my Higher Self. A quite unseemly solution was found….a Caribbean cruise.

Most people think of a party like atmosphere on a cruise, particularly the cruise line with whom I sailed. However, I made it exactly the quiet miracle that I needed to become the bright and dazzling Bird of Fire – the Phoenix. Rising from the ashes of my previous recent “mis-creations”, I am, once again, strong in my knowing and in my conscious creation abilities.

I still am not sure of “what’s around the river bend” but I do know what is going on in my heart and soul.

Perhaps life is subtly (or not so subtly) weighing you down in one area or another. Maybe you’ve been going years without feeling like you are operating from your authentic self.  If so, chances are you could use emergency restoration like I did. I’m not suggesting a cruise, unless of course you too know how to make it work for that purpose. Let your imagination run wild.  What would really help shake things up for you? I know, the excuses of why you can’t do something are flowing just as fast as the things you’d like to do. Listen people!  This is your life! You deserve to live it fully. Now! Not when you have time.  Not when you have money. Not when you can get away from work. Not when (you fill in the blank). I encourage you to manifest the first miracle today of deciding you are going to do whatever it takes to live your life fully aligned, joyful and powerful. Then take just the next step in that direction.

And yes, sometimes we can use the assistance of others as we make this amazing journey on Gaia together.  This is still a lesson I am working on accepting. At this time, I express infinite gratitude for each and every Earth Angel (many of you know who you are) that has kindly lifted me up each and every day.

You have all helped rekindle my fire so I, in turn, can continue my magnificent work of shining for the rest of this world.  If you would like some encouragement, insight or inspiration to assist you in your own Resurrection, please consider Telephone Wellness Coaching. Contact me or check out my website www.universalwellness.us for more details in determining if it is appropriate for you.

Thank you all for continuing to share my journey. If you are new to my adventures, welcome aboard. Abundant blessings in all your travels too!

Stirring the Pot….Part of My Mission?!

A while back, in a fit of temper, someone shot at me, “Nobody likes you and you cause trouble everywhere you go!”  At the time thankfully, I was so present in my power, I realized everything he was saying was just a projection of how he himself was feeling as he continued on with his angry tirade.

As you can imagine, and if you’ve been following my blog you know, I also have my high and low moments.  Recently I was in that dark place where my ego managed to stealthily slink in. I was in a situation that someone else wanted to put a guilt trip on me for a not so pretty situation.  Ego reminded me of those poison darts thrown at me in the past….. “You cause trouble everywhere you go!”  Before I knew it, I was on a path of looking at situations (everywhere I went) over the years that seemed to cause problems. Maybe he was right.  Maybe I did cause trouble everywhere I went! OMG! 

Before long, I was able to shake myself out of it and see my Truth.  Were there uncomfortable situations many times along my path? Yes!  Were there people who wanted to blame me for what was going on in their life? Yes!  Were the situations caused by me?  Yes and No. Yes, in the sense that I stirred the pot. Me, living my truth, standing my ground and being different than the norm, evokes in many people discomfort.  No, in the sense that I caused their actions and feelings.  These belong to them 100%.  Now the original sources of feelings may start from family, friends, teachers, religion, government and society programming, but people decide – consciously or not – how they are going to feel. Yikes, this is getting even more heavy!  So one might say, “But that person said something to me that was just cruel.  Of course that makes me feel offended!” My response….that person said words (and yes, the intent may have been to hurt) but the fact is that person said words.  You somehow related to those words and chose to be offended.  Eleanor Roosevelt said brilliantly, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent”.  And Ghandi, “No one can hurt me without my permission.”   There is another thing that “makes” some people uncomfortable around me - being truly me. It mirrors to them something that is in themselves they don’t like.  It is a catalyst for them to see ways that they may be living inauthentically.  It also can be a challenge for someone’s complete belief system about how they are living their life.  Most people don’t eagerly welcome any of these scenarios.

But what else do I prompt being true to myself?

Awareness….inspiration…..encouragement…..could this be part of my mission?

Yes, when I come from my connection to God and someone else is open to the light, this is what they perceive.  I know I am making a powerful positive difference in this world…..everywhere I go!  Just like each and every one reading these words has the ability to make a positive difference everywhere they go. No matter what “they” say, we know in our hearts when we are shining and when we are….well, less than shining.  I’m not saying it’s always easy.  I’m not saying I always shine very brightly.  What I am saying is I AM BEING part of the change I desire to see in this world along with a host of many others.  How about you? Every moment of the day you get to decide anew if you want to settle for the status quo…or be a courageous trailblazer!  I humbly invite you to make the choice to join me as we all make this world a brighter place!

Oh, one more piece on my incredible journey…..I may have a new tropical move up my sleeve shortly.  Will share more as things develop.  Thank you so much for your continued support, kind words and powerful energy!

Releasing…..Like Layers of an Onion

Ever since childhood, I have been letting go.  I let go of my childhood dreams completely by age 18 due to the circumstances of those earlier years.  I let go of a certain sense of security when I chose to leave a marriage that wasn’t honoring me.  When my son was only 16, it took all my courage to let him go when his choices weren’t respectful.  It was one of the most difficult gut wrenching decisions….a painful layer of the onion to shed.  When moving to Florida, I parted with a good third of my belongings and the comfort of family, friends and business connections.  Another huge wave of letting go transpired in Florida losing my home along with a number of properties, going through bankruptcy and saying good-bye to yet another marriage.  Then, thinking I would not need to drive on the Panamanian island I believed I was moving to live, I also gave away my car.  Last year I parted with another biggie for me.  It would not have seemed a big deal under my previous circumstances but given my current gypsy situation it’s value to me was great.  I gave away a diamond ring I was attached to for many reasons both emotional and logical.  The logical aspect was, I figured if I ever was in great need I could easily get $3000 which would get me back “on track”.  This year I had to release a relationship that was one of the closest to my heart.  As painful as it was, I had to stand in my truth which meant another good bye…another layer shed.

Early on in my journey, I almost believed that this letting go process would get easier as I gained experience.  I thought understanding the reason for things and seeing truth beyond the human experience would not take as much “vigilance”.  I don’t know about for others, but this hasn’t been the case for me.  I do know that I can make a choice in the midst of the pain to be in peace and, in a strange sort of way, happy.  I experience what I’m going through and make the decision to keep going on….to keep shining no matter what.

Now this isn’t meant to be a depressing piece so why am I sharing it with you?  Because of why I am choosing the whole shedding process in the first place.  Unless we let go of the old, there is no way we can experience the new.  We cannot continue to be and act and have in ways we did before if we wish to transform our lives by choice rather than default.  Default is the reality that change will always happen.  We can fight and hold on to the old, sometimes for a long time, but that doesn’t really help us.  We may also want to make some shifts or improvements in our lives but are worried about what others will think of us or are afraid of the new role we will have to play in the unfamiliar circumstances.  Personally, I know I have gained with every layer I have had the courage to shed.  While I admit I didn’t quite welcome the experiences, I thankfully am able to see some of the value I have gained.  Gained??  Gained through loss?  Yes!  With every layer released, my spirit has grown more and more free.  I am getting closer to embodying the Light that I really am.  I have shed (for the most part) being concerned about what others think of me.  I have learned to live (happily) without most of the material trappings that, at one time, I thought were essential.  I am not stressed about the things most people are because those things are not even in my awareness.  The more I disconnect from the rat race….the Grand Illusion, the more I can connect with my true self and the divinity in everyone around me.  I used to feel bad about not being able to assist people in the manner I desire.  I am now able to help them in ways far greater although most live in a state they cannot perceive such.  Again, I do have my human moments of sadness, pain and frustration.  However, for the most part, I am comforted and motivated by the real reason I came to this planet – a role I have only consciously stepped into by choosing to release anything from my life holding me back from truth and love.  I encourage you to examine your own life and look deeply into your heart.  Is there anything you are clinging to from the old that is keeping you from your truth?  Perhaps there is one little action, one baby step you can take right now to remove one more layer of whatever it is that is blocking you from shining as brightly as you can.  As you contemplate this and play (yes take this “lightly”) with your own process, keep in mind there is no judgment. There is no right or wrong.  All choices are honored.  Love Is All There Is!  And truly All Is Well!

PS.  If onions make you cry, please change my analogy…perhaps to a diamond in the rough.  But you’ll have to do a bit of chiseling to get through those layers ;-)

California Dreamin'

Why California Dreamin?  Because, at the moment, I am in California and I am dreaming ….Dreaming of warm sunshiny days, of smooth sandy beaches that go for miles, of warm turquoise crystal clear water teaming with sea life including my dolphin friends, of endless swaying palm trees and dreaming of assisting people from this beautiful sanctuary.


 

However, in my NOW moment, I am in Gratitude.  I am thankful for my wonderful family here that I get to enjoy including my new grandpuppy.  I am thankful for so many supportive angel friends all over the world.  I am grateful that I don’t have to actually be near the water to feel Dolphin Energy.  I am thankful that I have warm clothes, plenty of delightful food and a roof over my head.  I am blessed with the absolute knowing that I am in the absolute right place at the perfectly right time.  I am grateful that I have remembered enough about who I really am to be able to be mostly at peace with all the apparent craziness of my life.  Here’s an awesome quote for me at this (perceived) time in my life from C. JoyBell C.   “I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to. But the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you're going, but you know that so long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you.”  It was recently brought to my attention by my Sister Angel, Tania Marie, who writes a blog many of you may resonate with as it is so poignant for our ever-shifting times http://taniamarieartist.wordpress.com/2013/11/30/reverence-for-the-void/

While I am enjoying the holidays with family and friends, I am taking the baby steps as guided and walking through the doors as they reveal themselves to me in preparation for life in 2014.  There are still calls to Hawaii as well as hopes in Florida, although the possibilities are still world-wide.  I’m dancing with the flow and thankful that you are choosing to accompany my with your sparkling presence on this kaleidoscope journey! Abundant Blessings and Joyful Holidays ~

I Don’t Know Where I’m Going and I’m Proud of It!

LOL I don’t know for sure what’s going to be going on in my life today and I’m celebrating.  Sounds a little insane I know.  But I’m proud of it as I have, for the most part, been living my message.  Except for some psychics (maybe), No One really knows for sure what is going to happen the next minute.  Oh yes, once upon a time I had my life planned to a T for the next week, month and even years.  While my days went kind of how I anticipated, no day ever unfolded exactly how I expected.  That being said, another part of my message is that peace and happiness are not dependent on current circumstances.  Except for my “moments” here and there, my life IS joyful in spite of conditions others would see as scary, dangerous or uncomfortable.
 

Sooo, I am at another crossroads.  I still see visions of my Tropical Dolphin Spa Retreat although it still doesn’t feel particularly imminent.  The details continue to enchant me as if I was there…smooth, west facing beach where I run for miles, swaying palms, fragrant plumeria near warm, clear, turquoise, dolphin frequented waters.  I almost wrote “dolphin and mermaid” but didn’t want to stir up folks' skeptical side.  I smell the salt air wafting on a gentle breeze when I step down the steps of my island home right onto the beach.  Mmmmm, Paradise!  My Goodness, where was I?  Oh yes, at a crossroads in life.

My 24/7 mission is finished, months before it’s expected time (see nothing is set in stone).  At a time I expected to be packing for Panama, I am re-connecting with friends, putting out ads and doing research.  It is incredible how many roads lead to Hawaii.  While an enchanting place I’ve been to a number of times, in this life and others, I have had a strong sense that it is not “the place”.  I was so fervently hunting for the place that, perhaps, it took me this long to realize there could be a number of stepping stones still between my here and there.  It would be no surprise that my Lemurian roots would be calling me back to that sacred, powerful area now known as Hawaii.  

While I am figuring out which way to go and how to make it all happen, perhaps you’d like to throw your energy into my game.  Might you have any connections in Hawaii, particularly the Big Island, that I might contact for further information?  If so, please E-Mail me.  Maybe you’d like to make a Donation to assist me in helping raise the energy and awareness on this planet.  If appropriate, we can do an exchange the “traditional way”….I give you something for which you pay me money.  Juice Plus as a nutritional support system and the Tower Garden are products I feel would boost most people’s wellness quotient.  Or perhaps you are ready to consider Telephone Coaching.  However you choose to participate, thank you for accompanying me on this journey! I look forward to our continued encounters both physically and in other dimensions.

Incommunicado

For years I have been remembering my spiritual powers more and more as well as invited situations in which I may continue to grow.  In the past, I was a master of communication.  My phone calls and e-mails were answered, for the most part, within 24 hours.  In the event I couldn’t, I left a message stating such and had auto responders giving people a heads up.  Holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, and accomplishments where acknowledged in a timely manner with cards, e-notes and gifts.  Through my company, Universal Wellness (previously known as Fit Bodies), I sent out regular newsletters and e-mail updates.   I checked in on “my people” regularly, tooted my horn and marketed my business offerings at dozens of meetings every month as well as expanding my network through charity and community service.  I lectured, presented and taught various health related classes.

As the years continued, my “previous life” has gradually been dismantled.  The first dramatic change took place in 2006 when I moved to Florida.  I let go of my in person personal training business which previously made up the majority of my California “practice”.  In Florida, I continued Telephone Wellness Coaching, teaching group exercise classes and offering the nutritional support system I feel good about, Juice Plus.  The next significant shift happened in 2009 when my marriage, my house and my car removed themselves from my existence.  I was headed for a new life in Panama which would obviously drastically reduce my communication abilities.  In 2010, it became clear that my anticipated plans in Panama weren’t “panning” out and my gypsy journey was in full swing.  My life can be viewed in 2 ways….I am officially homeless OR everywhere I go is my home.  I prefer the latter.

I believed I would have, by now, a Spa Retreat by the Sea….a refreshing location the people could come for respite from their daily routines and for inspiring renewal.  Whether or not that location will appear in this existence of mine, I am now not sure.  It appears that I am the traveling retreat experience now.  I am taking the respite and renewal, in very untraditional ways, to the people I encounter in my travels.  Sometimes they are aware of it and sometimes not.  This is definitely not a traditionally “paid” job.  My pay is in the beauty of nature, my adventurous experiences and the kindness of the people in my path.  It has definitely been a humbling experience for me, so used to paying my way in the usual manner, to be supported by others who see the benefit of what I am doing.  Again, I acknowledge each and every one of my benefactors, from my family and friends to strangers on the street.  While still humbling, it is an exquisite delight to be able to see the light in people in ways I personally have not before.  The farther I get off the beaten path, the more I remember, the more I know!

Speaking of off the beaten path and lack of
communication… recently I had the longest experience of such which I take as an official transition the next level of my life.  I was in Panama for almost 2 months.  Due to computer issues, I was without communication for almost the entire time.  It felt like a mixed blessing.  Part of me kept trying to figure out how to get connected to technology to keep up with my communication.  The other part of me delighted in the whole new world of attention to the necessities of the moment and full appreciation of the Nature I was in.  This took my living in the moment to an even higher level.

Now, in this moment, I am not even able to offer my 6 week Telephone Wellness Coaching as I don’t know if I will be in an area at an appointed time with the ability of connecting by phone.  I still do occasional coaching sessions under the guise of “catching up” but not many formal scheduled coaching calls.  The only thing I am promoting in exchange for money is Juice Plus and the Tower Garden.  These things are handled by others mostly so I feel sure my clients will get excellent service whether I am available or not.

 

I have officially come to the conclusion I will never completely catch up – something I learned when I tried to wade through something like 3000 emails and continue taking care of my task at hand.  My current mission has me on my toes almost 24/7.  It is a challenge, a pleasure and a amazing dance ever spiraling me to higher and higher levels of existence and awareness.  I welcome and greet anyone on this journey with me.  Yes, you know full well who you are…whether we communicate in the physical (phone, email etc) or via telepathy….we are the change we wish to see in this world!  Thank you for all your gifts and energy you bring to this magnificent banquet of life!

Another Failed Journey?

Gratitude is usually something I end my blog posts with and something pouring forth from me as I start this one.  Thank you one and all for the myriad ways you have so generously contributed to my miraculous life!  There are those who use this blog to judge, gossip and use as ammunition against me.  I was tempted to stop posting but 100 ill-users cannot outweigh the 1 magnificent situation here and there where my writing has inspired someone to awaken a bit more.  So, no matter which camp you are in I know that, in some way, you bless me.  I celebrate one and all as we journey together in enlightenment.

Many of you were aware that I was headed to the Bahamas last March.  Hours were spent researching and making contacts there.  A possibility of a joint business venture with a Bahamian gal on the island of Andros (near Bimini) was in the air.  I even had some properties to investigate as the owners were interested in doing a trade with my Costa Rica land.  At one point a sizable Angel contribution landed in my PayPal account making the Spa Retreat research journey to the Bahamas look very viable.  My sweet, ever supportive daughter hosted 2 fundraising yard sales to help facilitate my trip.  Many friends and family members generously contributed to the sales too.  A captain friend in Miami agreed to be my taxi throughout the Bahamas on his sailboat.  When I arrived in Miami, one thing after another incredibly kept coming up for the captain delaying our trip.  It finally got to the point that I informed the captain I’d run out of waiting money and wouldn’t be sailing with him.  The friend who was kindly housing me at that time treated me to a Thai restaurant for lunch.  My fortune cookie said, “When one door closes another opens”…..duh, story of my life!  Sure enough, within days I was off on my next adventure.

Many would say the Bahamas trip was yet another failed journey as I started out thinking one thing would happen which then turned into something else…..just like my “move” to Panama in 2009 and many other “changed” adventures.  The Universe/My Higher Self/God (or however you choose to address the Creative Source) always is there guiding me.  I feel so blessed!  I have had people say, “I’m sorry that your Bahamas trip didn’t work out”.  While I appreciate their caring for me, I must say I’m not sorry.  Yes, I was excited about that trip and I am just as thrilled to be on the “trip” I find myself on right now.  I always know what step is best for me to take in my Now moment as long as I am tuned in.  This makes life so much more simple and peaceful no matter how chaotic and dramatic it may seem on the outside.  And while it appears that I keep switching paths, it is indeed the same perfect journey with the constant I can always count on being change.  This is the same with you.  How accepting are you of change?  How open are you to growth?  Like you I have intentions and ideas.  I put them out there and declare…… “This or something better for the highest good of all”.  Talk about winning all the time!  WhooHoo!

Now it appears that I have much traveling ahead of me.  When I am in the United States I am available for Personal Transformational Wellness Telephone Coaching on a very limited basis.  If you are interested, mention you read this here and I will email more details as soon as I am technologically able.

If anyone is ready for a total lifestyle change and is interested in possibly relocating to a tropical area to participate in manifesting the Spa Retreat, please let me know as well.  If you do not already have my email, please visit my website www.universalwellness.us and contact me through there.

And now I again bask in Gratitude for each and every one of you.  Thank you for  all the ways you contribute to me.  I grow stronger every moment and happily swirl the good vibes back to you!

Working Hard VS Dedication

“He (or she) is a very hard worker.”  I heard this expression a number of times recently and it is used very often as a compliment or indicator of what a good person someone is.  The society most of us live in has people so conditioned that it is a virtue to be “hard-working”.  I am a very hard worker at times myself.  In fact, the mission I am currently on requires a 24/7 commitment.  Often I work way harder than people with “regular jobs”.  However, people who don’t understand what I do would think I am not a “hard worker” since I don’t make any money.   Actually I don’t strive to be a hard worker.  Neither do I think I am better or worse than anyone else due to the level they work or the level I do.  So many people “work hard” at jobs they hate or don’t love.  When you consider most of folk’s waking hours are spent at work, this can’t be too great for their overall well-being.  No wonder there are so many cases of stress related ailments.

Now dedication to something is very different than hard-working.  One can work “hard” at something they are dedicated to yet it doesn’t feel like hard work, servitude or drudgery.  There is a saying that when you love what you do you never have to work another day in your life.  That’s the major difference between working the majority of your life at something and dedicating your life to something.  As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, the amount of money one makes is not a valid gauge of one’s value or how hard one works either.  People can make varying amounts of money based on how smart one gains it.  They can align themselves to the energy of winning the lottery, playing poker or Vegas gambling.  Others, like myself are of service in exchange for other’s providing for them…and it’s not always a direct exchange with the same people.  I am seeing the latter happening more and more upon the planet thankfully. Although I must admit there are still days it is a little challenging being on the cutting edge in this area.  Thankfully I am so engaged in my mission, I spend less time thinking about that and more time in gratitude for what I am able to do and appreciating the folks who sponsor and contribute to me along the way.

I do still take steps here and there to create financial income the “usual” way.  Since most people don’t eat enough fruits and vegetables even to maintain their health where it is, I offer an awesome nutritional support system through Juice Plus

http://michellehazlewood.juiceplus.com If you haven’t visited my Juice Plus site recently, please check it out as there is an abundance of new resources and nutritional information.  Incorporating the Juice Plus capsules can majorly assist your health and you would be doing yourself and even greater service consuming you own home grown fruits and veggies.  Since this is very difficult for many people due to space restraints and lack of a green thumb, the Tower Garden is a magical answer for them.  Due to the nature of the product, the produce ripens much quicker than the traditional methods as well! https://michellehazlewood.towergarden.com/ If you or anyone you know might benefit, I’d be honored to be able to support your well-being in this way.