Incommunicado

For years I have been remembering my spiritual powers more and more as well as invited situations in which I may continue to grow.  In the past, I was a master of communication.  My phone calls and e-mails were answered, for the most part, within 24 hours.  In the event I couldn’t, I left a message stating such and had auto responders giving people a heads up.  Holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, and accomplishments where acknowledged in a timely manner with cards, e-notes and gifts.  Through my company, Universal Wellness (previously known as Fit Bodies), I sent out regular newsletters and e-mail updates.   I checked in on “my people” regularly, tooted my horn and marketed my business offerings at dozens of meetings every month as well as expanding my network through charity and community service.  I lectured, presented and taught various health related classes.

As the years continued, my “previous life” has gradually been dismantled.  The first dramatic change took place in 2006 when I moved to Florida.  I let go of my in person personal training business which previously made up the majority of my California “practice”.  In Florida, I continued Telephone Wellness Coaching, teaching group exercise classes and offering the nutritional support system I feel good about, Juice Plus.  The next significant shift happened in 2009 when my marriage, my house and my car removed themselves from my existence.  I was headed for a new life in Panama which would obviously drastically reduce my communication abilities.  In 2010, it became clear that my anticipated plans in Panama weren’t “panning” out and my gypsy journey was in full swing.  My life can be viewed in 2 ways….I am officially homeless OR everywhere I go is my home.  I prefer the latter.

I believed I would have, by now, a Spa Retreat by the Sea….a refreshing location the people could come for respite from their daily routines and for inspiring renewal.  Whether or not that location will appear in this existence of mine, I am now not sure.  It appears that I am the traveling retreat experience now.  I am taking the respite and renewal, in very untraditional ways, to the people I encounter in my travels.  Sometimes they are aware of it and sometimes not.  This is definitely not a traditionally “paid” job.  My pay is in the beauty of nature, my adventurous experiences and the kindness of the people in my path.  It has definitely been a humbling experience for me, so used to paying my way in the usual manner, to be supported by others who see the benefit of what I am doing.  Again, I acknowledge each and every one of my benefactors, from my family and friends to strangers on the street.  While still humbling, it is an exquisite delight to be able to see the light in people in ways I personally have not before.  The farther I get off the beaten path, the more I remember, the more I know!

Speaking of off the beaten path and lack of
communication… recently I had the longest experience of such which I take as an official transition the next level of my life.  I was in Panama for almost 2 months.  Due to computer issues, I was without communication for almost the entire time.  It felt like a mixed blessing.  Part of me kept trying to figure out how to get connected to technology to keep up with my communication.  The other part of me delighted in the whole new world of attention to the necessities of the moment and full appreciation of the Nature I was in.  This took my living in the moment to an even higher level.

Now, in this moment, I am not even able to offer my 6 week Telephone Wellness Coaching as I don’t know if I will be in an area at an appointed time with the ability of connecting by phone.  I still do occasional coaching sessions under the guise of “catching up” but not many formal scheduled coaching calls.  The only thing I am promoting in exchange for money is Juice Plus and the Tower Garden.  These things are handled by others mostly so I feel sure my clients will get excellent service whether I am available or not.

 

I have officially come to the conclusion I will never completely catch up – something I learned when I tried to wade through something like 3000 emails and continue taking care of my task at hand.  My current mission has me on my toes almost 24/7.  It is a challenge, a pleasure and a amazing dance ever spiraling me to higher and higher levels of existence and awareness.  I welcome and greet anyone on this journey with me.  Yes, you know full well who you are…whether we communicate in the physical (phone, email etc) or via telepathy….we are the change we wish to see in this world!  Thank you for all your gifts and energy you bring to this magnificent banquet of life!

My Pirate Story

Numerous times throughout this lifetime, I have experienced images, feelings and snippets of my “past lives” or “other dimension” experiences. In early 2009, I had my first “extended embodiment" of myself in another time and space. I was in a Florida gym sweating delightfully on an elliptical trainer. My ears were filled with the music from Pirates of the Caribbean. I became transported to an earlier “me” I’d only seen briefly before. Surprise, surprise, I was a pirate - a girl pirate no less. I had long brown hair, a white somewhat billowy blouse, brown pants and high leather boots. I was also sporting 2 swords in my belt which did not remain there for long. Either a sword fight or sword play ensued as I was not sure if my opponent(s) were friend or foe. All I knew is that I was having a marvelous, skilled, confident, thrilling time. I actually had to work to keep my physical hands (in this realm) on the elliptical handles. My own hands wanted to turn, twist and parry as the vision I was experiencing. Now, in this life experience I have not touched a sword that resembled the ones I deftly wielded in this scene. However, I swear if someone placed one in my hand at that moment I would have known exactly what to do with it.

Fast forward almost a year later under similar circumstances….on elliptical trainer in a gym with strains of Pirates of the Caribbean pounding in my ears….this time in CA. Again, I was transported to that dimension that felt more real than the one I was theoretically in. I was again that pirate girl this time aware that I was in some sort of leadership role. A female pirate was less common in those times but in the role of leader….very unusual! I realized I was about to be killed. Not sure if I was on my ship or the land but I was surrounded by my comrades. My “enemies” (not sure why they were so or what I had done) had me firmly by the arms, one on each side. I stood there with an air of grace and confidence as I was aware the purpose of my impending death was to teach my companions a lesson. That being…that death was not something to be feared, simply a transition to another dimension full of beauty and remembrance. Now these tough pirates went into battle with such drive and ferocity some may find that hard to believe. But in the moment they realized they were going to die, they became full of terror due to the numerous horror stories they heard or, possibly worse, fear of the unknown. Then, as in this life, I personally was not big on pain. Miraculously I realized I also could have part of myself remain in that experience and elevate another part of myself to higher vibrational dimension. As I was run through with the sword I was calm and felt no pain as the crimson liquid quickly spread across my once white blouse. As the rough hands released their grip on my arms, loving arms from behind quickly supported my body and gently laid it on the ground as my spirit moved peacefully on.

Immediately upon coming back to my present life plane, there was the realization that Jesus had done something similar. His message has been so twisted over the years by those who would control, and misunderstood by those who really desired to learn from him. He did not endure his passion and death to ransom mankind because we were worthless and deserving of hellfire. He died to show us about transformation and transcendence. He experienced and conquered his own demons teaching us that “this and more we could do”! He passed through the valley of darkness (something many of us experience in our lifetime) and rose again triumphant as an example for us all.

About a week later I had a few more magical pirate girl insights. Understanding was clearer about my “leadership role” although a female. I was a princess in a kingdom somewhere in Europe. I did not like or agree with the rules, the silliness about status and the way many people were treated….more like abused in my opinion. So I slipped away and, with a number of like minded people, became a pirate. We were not pirates in the sense commonly thought of as in pillaging and terrorizing places. It was more of a Robin Hood like mission. The difference being, we did not take from the rich simply because they were rich. The taxes people were required to pay in the way of money, goods and services were exorbitant at that time and unfair since they had to pay on things that should have been theirs already. We simply retrieved money and goods from those that wrongfully took in the first place and returned them to the people.

My shipmates wanted to treat me like a princess but I did not desire the preferential treatment. Most of the time I blended in with my crew although here and there one would defer to me in a way someone aware would notice. The ship was also operated mostly by mutual group planning and agreement. I can picture them clearly in my mind but don’t know the correct terms for the “rowers”…in I think was the galley ( or is that the kitchen?) Anyway the rowers were all buff, as would be imagined, and most of the time were in a jovial mood in spite of their demanding labor. There were drummers and dancers and comedians to inspire and entertain them. Regularly water was distributed to them as well. Yes, this crew was more like a family than any traditional one by blood.

…….So, I’m sharing this all with a friend and she hears something different in my tale. While I am saying I died in my past life to teach people not to fear death, she hears that I am here right now to teach people not to fear living. So many people are afraid to truly live for so many reasons. Some are caught up in the false sense of security of staying in a current job they don’t like. Others are afraid of moving since they’ve lived in one place, state or country for so long, the uncertainty of another location that may be “calling” them goes unheeded. There are so many adventures, hobbies, dreams, “risks”, catching dust in the back of their minds held hostage by their fears. Indeed, many people are only existing instead of being fully alive and living.

I am still musing about what she said as part of it resonates with me. At this time, I am looking for the door to walk through to see how it may become part of my joyous reality.

Perhaps Telephone Wellness Coaching is one of the pathways. Check out http://www.universalwellness.us/services/telephone_coaching.asp and see if it calls to you.

Blessings and Joy on Your Journey ~

Michelle

I Give As I Receive?

Recently, I shared about how I was grateful to be able to practice what I preached specifically regarding staying in peace during a potentially challenging situation. That was my being without my computer for a couple weeks, not knowing when or how I'd be able to get one and when I'd regain the contact with my "outside world" I'd been accustomed to. Interestingly I found a place I may not 100% have mastered another lesson.

I "put out" to the Universe, "I give as I receive" and "I am open to receiving infinite abundance from all avenues expected and not". Some of my clients may recognize such sentiments as ones I've presented to them to adopt.

My circumstances in last couple years have had me in a position to receive way more often than I am accustomed. As observed before, one of my roles on this planet is being a teacher. This has been more by example than with words. Sometimes we teach what we ourselves are still learning. This evidently has been the case for me in the receiving area.

The other day my morning started with a fantastic miracle. I was heading out my front door for my morning replenishment on my beach. To my incredible surprise, there were bags of groceries in front of my door from an anonymous benefactor. It was like Christmas (or my birthday)! There were vegetables, fruit, snack bars, chicken, cereal, rice, water, toiletries. There was even a little pink candle with a label that said, "Manifest a Miracle - May I receive from the spirit to assist me". So many feelings washed over me as I pulled the goodies out one after another. I was soooo grateful to have received this wealth of abundance. May of these things I didn't have or didn't know how I'd acquire next. Yes, yes, thank you, thank you! But then, I don't even know who so generously gave this bounty to me. How would I be able to repay them? Even if I did know, I didn't have the means to repay them anyway. Oddly I began experiencing feelings of embarrassment. The person leaving me this huge gift must know that I wasn't in a position to get these things myself. And then the thought, "I give as I receive" came to mind. Do I really? Oh, I love all the opportunities I have to give and do for others and I certainly didn't expect anything in return but here I am unable to purely accept another's pleasure in giving? Hmmm....a new can of worms so to speak. Perhaps I am in this seemingly unexplainable limbo because I've yet to totally master such a simple thing. I needed to be at this extreme to be in a position to purely receive with true appreciation and joy. How many blessings and opportunities are just waiting in the ethers.....just waiting for me to be truly open to receive? Maybe for you too?

Just a little food for thought....

P.S. By the way, it just happens that it was the day in Bijan's Effortless Prosperity book for the lesson: "I am open to receive all of God's gifts".