Déjà Vu 2?

After returning from my first “apparently” unfruitful move to Panama in 2009, I was presented with an absolutely fantastic business opportunity in California that could have been the beginning of my Spa Retreat. While exciting at first, there were a few elements that didn’t sit well in my gut so I graciously turned it down.

Now, again returning from a second Panama “move”, I was in communication with a couple with an absolutely gorgeous place in Roatan, Honduras. It was another golden opportunity served up on a silver platter. The buildings on the property were absolutely beautiful and seemed perfect for a start up with land for expansion nearby. Clear blue water with delightful coral reef right off the coastline was inviting too. My big reservation…..while the property is on the water with spectacular views up and down the coastline, there is no beach there. I compromised on that important factor with my second Panama effort which may just be the reason that things didn’t develop as hoped for. While I knew how much I totally loved the beach, I didn’t realize until recently what an absolute necessity it is in my life. The “right” beach nourishes and sustains me even more than the food I eat.

It was a delightful month I spent with my extremely generous Florida family. The whole while I investigated opportunities to be able to support myself and work toward manifesting my dream in this area I’ve moved from 5 times and keep finding myself back. Another 2 week stay was lined up with another friend but I found out the morning I was supposed to go there an issue had arisen preventing me from that opportunity. While I continued my search, I found myself in the unique situation of living in a car for a week. Am I ever grateful to the friend who loaned me the car. It always helps in a car living situation to actually have a vehicle, something I don’t personally own at the moment. I am also so happy that Florida finally produced (after 2 freezing winters) the kind of winter I moved here for! This situation gave me lots of opportunity to be on my beloved beach….many times in a bathing suit – get that, it’s December! My dolphin friends communicated and interacted with me regularly. Actually this is part of my dream. It would be a sheer pleasure to live on the beach! Unfortunately for me I am a criminal here if I am on the beach too late or if I leave my vehicle in the beach parking lot after midnight. How crazy is that? Some day nature will be able to be shared in the manner it was meant to.

Now I have again been blessed with a super generous friend providing me temporary housing! Oh that first night how I luxuriated in just being in a house, sleeping in a bed and enjoying “real food”! Simple pleasures…..

For a limited time I am now able to offer Telephone Wellness Coaching again. These days there are so many changes going on right now in our lives and on our planet. I have much information about this and am prepared to share, on an individual basis, with those who are ready to receive it (and you know who you are)! For details, please go to http://www.universalwellness.us/services/index.asp

As I continue my journey full of questions, there is still a certainty that everything happens for a reason which is for my highest good. Wishing you bright blessings and happy holidays as we all move together into magical 2012!

Discovering Like Edison

I don’t remember personally as I wasn’t there but…….supposedly, after struggling to develop a viable electric light-bulb for months and months, Thomas Edison was interviewed by a young reporter who boldly asked Mr. Edison if he felt like a failure and if he thought he should just give up by now. Perplexed, Edison replied, "Young man, why would I feel like a failure? And why would I ever give up? I now know definitively over 9,000 ways that an electric light bulb will not work. Success is almost in my grasp." And shortly after that, and over 10,000 attempts, Edison invented the light bulb.

Well, I now know one more location that I will not manifest my Spa Retreat. Not that it wasn’t part of my path as I believe all experiences have value on our journey. Part of the magic is to have the wisdom to see all the blessings and miracles along the way. Tropical living is definitely something that calls to me (minus certain annoying chitres) so my 2 month adventure on Isla Popa in Panama definitely provided many useful lessons.

I am now with my lovely Florida Family that has graciously taken me in to rest and re-focus. Back at the drawing board I continue to look for clues, signs and information that will help me to discover the best path to take next. Btw, if anyone has any information on underwater birthing with dolphins, I’d be very grateful to receive it.

Another thing many asked me before was, “Why Panama?” Well, it wasn’t the human labeled country “Panama” that was calling me. It is a tropical location with a certain “energy”, including a fairly secluded stretch of beach for running and more, warm water to swim in (& possibly for birthing babies), mostly off the grid with as little government interference as possible. Ideas of where that might be are welcome too!

Relatively few learned to create a light bulb from Edison yet countless numbers over the decades have been inspired by Edison to be patient, persistent and follow their mission/calling no matter how many twists and turns in the road.

While I have always known that life is a journey, not a destination, I am beginning to realize it is the journey of following my calling that is actually part of my mission. I am supposed to inspire people to act upon what their heart (instead of their wallet) is telling them no matter how unrealistic, crazy or impossible it may seem.

The Spa Retreat Quest continues for me. May your purposeful quest delightfully continue, or begin if you have recently made the choice to follow your guidance to your Higher Calling!

Blessings on Your Journey ~

Michelle

PS. I was having difficulty getting the pictures uploaded where I wanted so, in the interest of time, I will leave them where they landed. Better to get this out today then have them perfect....on second thought, maybe they are perfect ;-)

Panama Move….Déjà Vu?

In September of ’09 I enthusiastically “moved” to Panama. However the move was short lived as the basics I thought I had in place turned out to be naught. I certainly couldn’t have fathomed the gypsy journeys that lay ahead of me at that time. While I confess to many doubts about the “hows”, my vision remained constant and materialized again as my Panama return at the end of August 2011. While nowhere near the big picture I still envision, I am celebrating the milestone that it is.

What a roller coaster ride the preceding months were! I was on a daily basis, sometimes even an hourly basis, never sure whether I would actually make this Panama relocation. Yes, the air tickets did indicate August 25. Yes, I was packing…periodically. But the hows and details about other factors of the move kept playing shenanigans on me. It took every ounce of practicing what I preached…..it took every trick in my bag to remain vigilant for the light.

The return was plagued with premonitions although I did my best not to focus on negativity so as not to let my attention fuel them more. The sellers of the property my partner in this venture purchased where a high vibration when we originally met them in April. They told us many things that did not end up in the purchase contract as they were “people of their word so didn’t like to write everything down”. I felt the dark energy coming up after the down payment and before the final payment. Due to that lack of synergy and communication with my partner, I was not able to prevent the myriad of challenges we encountered due to the sellers not keeping their word and worse. They had agreed to sell us the house fully furnished which justified the amount paid considering the costs to bring all the tools and furnishings from the US or buy them here. Right under our nose the sellers took boatload after boatload of just about everything from the house. What was left behind was garbage and items that were broken. On top of that, they went around telling people that we had taken everything from them and they didn’t even have a mattress to sleep on. This was totally ironic since we actually helped them remove their mattress from the house. A sympathetic Panamanian woman (who didn’t have a lot of material possessions) gave them a mattress. Also interesting is that the sellers expected to entertain company (2 separate parties) in the house after we bought it and were angry with us when we didn’t relocate until their company was to leave. The whole situation was based on lies. Even the cute little house was like one on a movie set – built for a temporary purpose (to sell the property). There is one legality that the sellers didn’t fulfill in the contract time that may redeem the situation but only time will tell regarding that.

In the meantime, we are here on Isla Popa, Panama, making many beautiful friends both young and old. The people are simple, warm and colorful. Our encounters have involved mutually assisting and enjoying each other. Living on the warm Caribbean waters has many rewards as well. Both from the deck and the balcony of the second floor, the water is usually clear enough to see whatever happens to be playing nearby, fish, rays, starfish, crabs and more. Swimming in the warm water is always refreshing with the bonus of dolphins frequenting our tranquil lagoon on a regular basis providing occasional entertainment with their antics. Fish here are of the resplendent varieties I’ve only seen in fish tanks and diving in Hawaii. Oh, and much of the waters in the area are home to magical coral gardens. Gorgeous views greet us at all times of the day with the water, mountains, light and ever changing clouds. While never totally quiet here, the sounds are mostly peaceful – lapping water on the shore, a gazillion different kinds of birds, insects and other noise making critters.

Another benefit of this adventure was learning how to live off the grid. Our water supply is dependent on the generosity of the rain. Electricity is precious and used as little as possible as the batteries are charged twice a day with a generator. We discussed bringing solar panels in later but that may be a mute point now. Propane warms our showers and fuels our stove. We must tend to and be aware of all these systems throughout the day. Thankfully we are able to pick up an internet signal through cell phone which, during a few of those precious minutes using electricity, we hook up to the computer.

On that note, I’d better wrap this up and post as soon as possible. Until next time…..Be Well!

P.S. If you are my friend on FB you can see some pics there as I don't have enough electricity time to post at the moment.

Tropical Update

Hola Mi Amigos! Thanks for taking the time to care and check in on the evolution of a dream or, better stated, a calling. Some of you know I have been patiently (ok, not always so patiently) walking through the doors of my life as they present. Many of them make no more sense to me than they do to you. I just trust the Universe to guide me one day at a time – sometimes one moment at a time.

Thanks again to the kindness of earth angels, I was able to take another exploratory adventure in Panama. As with most adventures, it was wrought with the gamut of emotions, ups and downs. The number of possibilities ran as high as the emotions. At the moment I am playing with research about sustainable living – off the grid. Any tips or resources in this area are appreciated. Also, if anyone is interested in donating a Rosetta Stone Latin American Spanish Language course, my arms are open to receive it J After 3 years, I’d still not do very well on the street and you can only imagine how I’d do by boat!

Those who know me on a personal level remember to shoot me and e-mail and let me know you saw this news tidbit.

Until next time, wishing you the best…..Hasta Luego ~ Michelle

I Can't Get Sick!

Yeah, right off the bat a number of my clients are thinking there’s something strange about that title coming from me. You are right, I watch what I say and use my words very carefully. “Can’t” is generally a cop out, a victim word or expression of inability. And yes, usually the “Universe” (and our minds) don’t really process “can’t or don’t”…..the focus would be on “get sick”. In case I haven’t confused you enough up to this point, what comes to your mind when I say, “don’t think of a pink furry elephant”? If you are like most, you thought of a pink furry elephant first and then tried to figure out how not to think about it. So, why did I pick this choice of title words? Simple…to catch people’s attention.

It is now widely understood that people’s beliefs greatly affect the situations and outcomes in people’s lives. Now there are varying levels of “belief”. Certain beliefs I have are just kind of there beliefs. Others are accompanied by a strong sense of really knowing. And some, I know so deeply I can feel them. The knowledge that I can’t get sick falls in the latter category. Usually, when I am thinking about it, it is more of a sense of gratitude for my flawless health. I have had this sense, as well as excellent health, for over 15 years. Maybe over 20 but I’m not so good with numbers (just another belief system). While I do have a belief that I can’t get hurt as well, it isn’t the intense knowing, feeling level of the “I can’t get sick” one. So I do have occasional volleyball bruises, miscellaneous body tweaks or a stubbed toe here and there. Oh, and there was that crazy trapeze incident, but that’s a story for another day. Fortunately, my belief system about those rare occasions that I do get injured is that I heal super fast and so it is!

Then why do I still take Juice Plus? For insurance! 98% of the time, I am happy, at peace and in a positive space (it could be 99% but you know that numbers thing). So, there are a few brief moments here and there I get frustrated, confused, impatient or have some random less than positive thought. Since I am aware of those times, there is a smidgen of a chance my beliefs could get shaky for a few seconds. So, for now, I feel better taking Juice Plus.

I do know that, in the regular human scientific thinking, most people need 5 - 9 servings of fresh, raw, vine-ripened fruits & vegetables every day just for maintenance! Even when I was eating fairly healthy on a regular basis, I generally didn’t get all this in. Most produce in a grocery store is picked way before ripe thus not having all its expected nutrients. Cooking and processing also decrease the benefits to our health. And then there are those folks who don’t even eat many, or any, fruits and veggies. No, catsup is not a vegetable (or a fruit if you are trying to go that route)! Juice Plus is what I call a nutritional support system. It contains 17 fruits, veggies and grains, of which your body takes what it needs and simply passes on the rest. The FDA has even approved a food label since it is considered a whole food as opposed to the typical fractionated vitamins and minerals in many supplements. Heck, even when I was heavily studying nutrition I couldn’t figure out exactly how much of what vitamin and minerals my body needed, and my needs changed for different amounts of activity and different times of the month! When people asked me about various nutritional products to take, I finally felt comfortable with this simple system for most everyone. If anyone ate 17 fruits, vegetables and grains, (besides eating all day) their bodies would simply take what they needed and pass on the rest. For me, it is as close to nature as I know until I can be in a place I can grow my own food……

If anyone is interested in a little nutritional insurance for themselves, please visit https://michellehazlewood.juiceplus.com/us/en and see how it feels for you!

My Pirate Story

Numerous times throughout this lifetime, I have experienced images, feelings and snippets of my “past lives” or “other dimension” experiences. In early 2009, I had my first “extended embodiment" of myself in another time and space. I was in a Florida gym sweating delightfully on an elliptical trainer. My ears were filled with the music from Pirates of the Caribbean. I became transported to an earlier “me” I’d only seen briefly before. Surprise, surprise, I was a pirate - a girl pirate no less. I had long brown hair, a white somewhat billowy blouse, brown pants and high leather boots. I was also sporting 2 swords in my belt which did not remain there for long. Either a sword fight or sword play ensued as I was not sure if my opponent(s) were friend or foe. All I knew is that I was having a marvelous, skilled, confident, thrilling time. I actually had to work to keep my physical hands (in this realm) on the elliptical handles. My own hands wanted to turn, twist and parry as the vision I was experiencing. Now, in this life experience I have not touched a sword that resembled the ones I deftly wielded in this scene. However, I swear if someone placed one in my hand at that moment I would have known exactly what to do with it.

Fast forward almost a year later under similar circumstances….on elliptical trainer in a gym with strains of Pirates of the Caribbean pounding in my ears….this time in CA. Again, I was transported to that dimension that felt more real than the one I was theoretically in. I was again that pirate girl this time aware that I was in some sort of leadership role. A female pirate was less common in those times but in the role of leader….very unusual! I realized I was about to be killed. Not sure if I was on my ship or the land but I was surrounded by my comrades. My “enemies” (not sure why they were so or what I had done) had me firmly by the arms, one on each side. I stood there with an air of grace and confidence as I was aware the purpose of my impending death was to teach my companions a lesson. That being…that death was not something to be feared, simply a transition to another dimension full of beauty and remembrance. Now these tough pirates went into battle with such drive and ferocity some may find that hard to believe. But in the moment they realized they were going to die, they became full of terror due to the numerous horror stories they heard or, possibly worse, fear of the unknown. Then, as in this life, I personally was not big on pain. Miraculously I realized I also could have part of myself remain in that experience and elevate another part of myself to higher vibrational dimension. As I was run through with the sword I was calm and felt no pain as the crimson liquid quickly spread across my once white blouse. As the rough hands released their grip on my arms, loving arms from behind quickly supported my body and gently laid it on the ground as my spirit moved peacefully on.

Immediately upon coming back to my present life plane, there was the realization that Jesus had done something similar. His message has been so twisted over the years by those who would control, and misunderstood by those who really desired to learn from him. He did not endure his passion and death to ransom mankind because we were worthless and deserving of hellfire. He died to show us about transformation and transcendence. He experienced and conquered his own demons teaching us that “this and more we could do”! He passed through the valley of darkness (something many of us experience in our lifetime) and rose again triumphant as an example for us all.

About a week later I had a few more magical pirate girl insights. Understanding was clearer about my “leadership role” although a female. I was a princess in a kingdom somewhere in Europe. I did not like or agree with the rules, the silliness about status and the way many people were treated….more like abused in my opinion. So I slipped away and, with a number of like minded people, became a pirate. We were not pirates in the sense commonly thought of as in pillaging and terrorizing places. It was more of a Robin Hood like mission. The difference being, we did not take from the rich simply because they were rich. The taxes people were required to pay in the way of money, goods and services were exorbitant at that time and unfair since they had to pay on things that should have been theirs already. We simply retrieved money and goods from those that wrongfully took in the first place and returned them to the people.

My shipmates wanted to treat me like a princess but I did not desire the preferential treatment. Most of the time I blended in with my crew although here and there one would defer to me in a way someone aware would notice. The ship was also operated mostly by mutual group planning and agreement. I can picture them clearly in my mind but don’t know the correct terms for the “rowers”…in I think was the galley ( or is that the kitchen?) Anyway the rowers were all buff, as would be imagined, and most of the time were in a jovial mood in spite of their demanding labor. There were drummers and dancers and comedians to inspire and entertain them. Regularly water was distributed to them as well. Yes, this crew was more like a family than any traditional one by blood.

…….So, I’m sharing this all with a friend and she hears something different in my tale. While I am saying I died in my past life to teach people not to fear death, she hears that I am here right now to teach people not to fear living. So many people are afraid to truly live for so many reasons. Some are caught up in the false sense of security of staying in a current job they don’t like. Others are afraid of moving since they’ve lived in one place, state or country for so long, the uncertainty of another location that may be “calling” them goes unheeded. There are so many adventures, hobbies, dreams, “risks”, catching dust in the back of their minds held hostage by their fears. Indeed, many people are only existing instead of being fully alive and living.

I am still musing about what she said as part of it resonates with me. At this time, I am looking for the door to walk through to see how it may become part of my joyous reality.

Perhaps Telephone Wellness Coaching is one of the pathways. Check out http://www.universalwellness.us/services/telephone_coaching.asp and see if it calls to you.

Blessings and Joy on Your Journey ~

Michelle

To Blog or Not To Blog?

I know, I know, lots of you dear friends have been asking about my next update and for that I am grateful. Due to life’s complexities, I have not been able to maintain my blog as I would like. Being “spiritual” or “awakening” does not mean people are immune to human happenings and I am no exception. It’s how we handle “life happening” that makes the difference.

If you want to check in with me for a more personalized connection, please e-mail me (and make sure that address is on your happy list as I’ve had challenges with bounce backs in the past). Of course, I would also love to assist with Juice Plus, the nutritional support system I am a rep for as well as personalized Telephone Wellness Coaching. The Enlightened Chats with Michelle are still available depending on availability. I must clarify (in this age where “chatting” means online typing) that these must be calls within the US (or you call me) or we can connect via Skype.

Love and Blessings to All!